Chapter 158
This morning! Glorious gold gleaming treetops as I drive the always stunning trail to Bragg from my place. It’s good to be alive… and still kicking at the traces on a daily basis.
I managed to survive another parental separation and the slow, but sure slide back into the normality of life on my own again. The Labour Day Weekend seemed to herald the end of summer in no uncertain terms… a glorious weekend moving to life- giving rain followed by a Monday with such dense smoke that I couldn’t see the second stand of trees out the back of my place.
I find myself having queries and conversations all through the month, but missing opportunities to put them down on paper. I wonder where the time is going, but it’s mostly a motivational lacuna that permeates my existence. Having ideas and desires is one thing, taking action is another. I know many folk suffer with a similar inertia.
People keep dying. Fact of life. As we age – with luck – we have the chance to say goodbye many times, and to look forward to our own transformation, to address life with positive ideas and plans for the next phase. How many of us spend time thinking about the next phase or adventure and what we can do to prepare for it? It’s a difficult challenge in our society where we have created such an aura of fear around the notion of death, the most natural thing after all. Why are we so a-feared of it happening? For me, it’s the anticipation of pain that triggers the fear rather than the change from this life to whatever comes next. I’m quite engaged by thinking that on the other side of this superficial existence in this handy-dandy earth-suit, I might get to do even more amazing things.
Ram Das describes dying as “taking off a tight shoe”, he reminds us that “Death is not an error. It is not a failure.” Good things to remember as the days remaining become far fewer than the ones we have enjoyed.
Saying Goodbye is a challenge we have to practice on a daily basis. Live well, live now, this is the only chance we’ll get to do the things we do today. There is only one today.
The world turns and the leaves are brilliant for a few precious days of Autumn/ Fall… we are plunging rapidly into our winter wonderland again. Praying for an abundance of moisture to seep into the land however it may, hoping that days will become easier for many, wishing for harmonious times for all of us.
Blissings,
Kat Dancer
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